Ashley Elizabeth

haha

i just meant to type in “tumblr.com” in my url browser and totally typed “YUMBLR.com” instead. haha. i wish that really was it.

beautiful day out - i’m off work this weekend and am getting shit DONE.

I’m so over-caffeinated today.
Even had espresso OVER TOP of pumpkin ice cream - for dinner.
And as I sat there tonight, I overheard two older men.
One was talking about how he used to live in Virginia Beach, when the other said “Man, what a weird part of the country, that place”.
The man then replied, “Tell me about it - I grew up there.”
I just laughed to myself and thought “well, ain’t that the truth.”

“So, now I shall talk every night.
To myself.
To the moon.
I shall walk, as I did tonight, jealous of my loneliness, in the blue-silver of the cold moon, shining brilliantly on the drifts of fresh-fallen snow, with the myriad sparkles. I talk to myself and look at the dark trees, blessedly neutral.
So much easier than facing people, than having to look happy, invulnerable, clever.

With masks down, I walk, talking to the moon, to the neutral impersonal force that does not hear, but merely accepts my being.
And does not smite me down.
I went to the bronze boy whom I love, partly because no one really cares for him, and brushed a clot of snow from his delicate smiling face.
He stood there in the moonlight, dark, with snow etching his limbs in white, in the semi-circle of the privet hedge, bearing his undulant dolphin, smiling still, balancing on one dimpled foot.”