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weird pants, always.
Hardly ever talk on here these days. Not much to say, except I’ve just been out there livin’ & enjoyin’ I guess. However, I’d like to take a little moment here to say to/for myself that I am looking so forward to going home for Christmas, albeit just for a few days. It’s not even the holiday for me (is it really even December 21st? my word, does time fly) - this is the first time since I’ve moved to this place that I have felt a real desire to get out, which honestly surprises me… Life here, not just my own but in general, has been consuming. Enthralling, really, like a great episode of Seinfeld that never ends & that you never want to stop watching (isn’t that always?). An endless adventure, a beautiful story, blahblahblah. But I’ve missed home & my family & friends, that is certain, and that quiet & stillness outside at night. Falling asleep to the sounds of television playing from the other room & my dad’s oddball comments. God damn, it’s going to be so strange to drive my car again, down those wide open roads & through those vast rolling hills. And god damn it’s going to be so good to see those faces again - my mothers when we first see each other & her incredibly goofy laugh. Smothering my niece & nephews in hugs & kisses. Revisiting all my old haunts. Smelling the earthiness of that whole place. Wow, do I miss the summertime there. Just to take it all in, really - what has shaped me into this life that I lead now. I am so grateful. And in the middle of it all, I know it will hit me in a sudden whirlwind or like a punch to the gut - I’ll miss New York so bad that it hurts & will inevitably feel like I’m missing out on something, but it’s all part of the deal, and I’ll just laugh during that night time cab ride right back into her belly. But holy shit am I ever going to enjoy this trip and take it real easy probably getting whiskey-bent, watching You’ve Got Mail because it’s great & I don’t care & bringing back as much Mingua beef jerky as my backpack will allow. Some of you may not get this reference, but it’s totally Skyline time ya’ll. 

Hardly ever talk on here these days. Not much to say, except I’ve just been out there livin’ & enjoyin’ I guess. However, I’d like to take a little moment here to say to/for myself that I am looking so forward to going home for Christmas, albeit just for a few days. It’s not even the holiday for me (is it really even December 21st? my word, does time fly) - this is the first time since I’ve moved to this place that I have felt a real desire to get out, which honestly surprises me… Life here, not just my own but in general, has been consuming. Enthralling, really, like a great episode of Seinfeld that never ends & that you never want to stop watching (isn’t that always?). An endless adventure, a beautiful story, blahblahblah. But I’ve missed home & my family & friends, that is certain, and that quiet & stillness outside at night. Falling asleep to the sounds of television playing from the other room & my dad’s oddball comments. God damn, it’s going to be so strange to drive my car again, down those wide open roads & through those vast rolling hills. And god damn it’s going to be so good to see those faces again - my mothers when we first see each other & her incredibly goofy laugh. Smothering my niece & nephews in hugs & kisses. Revisiting all my old haunts. Smelling the earthiness of that whole place. Wow, do I miss the summertime there. Just to take it all in, really - what has shaped me into this life that I lead now. I am so grateful. And in the middle of it all, I know it will hit me in a sudden whirlwind or like a punch to the gut - I’ll miss New York so bad that it hurts & will inevitably feel like I’m missing out on something, but it’s all part of the deal, and I’ll just laugh during that night time cab ride right back into her belly. But holy shit am I ever going to enjoy this trip and take it real easy probably getting whiskey-bent, watching You’ve Got Mail because it’s great & I don’t care & bringing back as much Mingua beef jerky as my backpack will allow. Some of you may not get this reference, but it’s totally Skyline time ya’ll. 

  1. carlmelo said: wait! you have a nissan skyline?
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